Sunday, August 12, 2007
check out what my mum did to my hair to keep my fringe up. YES THATS MY FRINGE. hahah. i think when i take it out later, my hair will curl up. i considered cutting it REALLY REALLY SHORT, but i decided i prefer long hair. and since so many people are insisting i look like a guy, i shouldnt make it even more so.
i seriously cant believe that i look like a guy. ewww! i shall grow my hair long again.
oh yeah. and i feel pathetically short. and i pathetically lack confidence. and its all thanks to my sister's drum teacher. he's sec2, but he's taller than me by ALOT. and my mum was wondering why he was so confident. hahah. maybe its just where he grew up.
growing up in Jurong had its bad points, like knowing stuff really long after it happened, and being 30 minutes away from the nearest library, and 2hours away from relatives [who happened to live in pasirris at the time] and at least an hour away from orchard road, and having few friends. but it had its good points too, like being able to go to the zoo or bird park or science centre with it not being too far away. and we werent exposed to alot of vulgarities [results in me not knowing ALOT of the vocab used in the society now.] it's a safe place. once we left our house and didnt close the door and the gate, but when we reached home, nothing was touched! i liked living in Jurong. but we're in geylang now. kinda drastic isnt it. from all the way out there to such a central location. i was kinda scared at first, cause i didnt know anyone. but i guess people adapt quite quickly. as said in the teacher's comment section in the report book during p5.
our new home is situated so near the "red light district" and there are so many... scary people around. like that old man on the bicycle who keeps waving to me when i walk home from the busstop near payalebarmrt. and the indian man who sweeps the floor in the morning who goes "goodmorningmaam" EARRRLY in the morning at like 6.30am. kinda nice of him, but freaks me out all the same, cause according to my sister who leaves a little after me, he doesnt 'goodmorningmaam' her. and that guy who sleeps at the voiddeck. and the woman with the HUGE dog. and there are so many more. maybe im just paranoid. but i guess you need alot of confidence to live in such a place. cause if not, you'll be scared by practically everything you see.
I NEED CONFIDENCE.
HoldMeInYourArms.
5:50 PM
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