i was doing a little more thinking. which isnt very good when you have promises to keep. and i almost cried on the bus along the way home.

the bus was noisy, i guess it covered every sound i could have made. ohwell!

i believe everything in life now, is about comparison. how you compare things like how well you do in school, what kind of house you live in, how much you have in your bank account. why must we compare? why can we not just live in contentedness? why cant we all just be happy with what we have? why must the economy rise, and why must we all rise with the economy? would not life be simpler if the cost of living was not so high? i guess i'll only understand these things later in life. or maybe i'll never understand. on a younger scale, why must we go to the best schools? why cant we just go to the one nearest our homes? why must we pursue higher learning in institutes of higher learning? why is all this necessary? our parents say its cause we can improve our standard of living. must we really keep improving our standard of living? is it not already enough as it is? and why do we listen to our parents? sometimes they're not really. right. sometimes we're just there to live out the dreams our parents never got to achieve. why must we be living out our parent's dreams instead of living out our own. and why do we even have dreams?

i think im asking too many questions. anyone care to answer them? sigh.

sister wants to use the computer. see you all next time. goodnight, sweetdreams.